What to do?

There is so much negativity in my life right now. Rather, I feel incredibly negative about my life. We moved out to Chicago, and rather than getting better everything has gotten worse. The life I'm living, have been living since we moved here is too much. It's too heavy. I can't bear this anymore. I really do love him, but I lose patience with Mike at the drop of a hat, and frankly think we should split up. Unfortunately he's the only person I'm close to out here and I'm the reason he's not starving and homeless. Also, if he moved out I'd lose the kitties. And frankly, they give me the only love I feel OK about taking anymore. I need help, and there isn't any out there for me. I have rarely felt so abandoned.