Here I am, back after several years.  2 of which have been spent being in a kind of relationship with David O.  That's over now, and even though I broke up with him I'm still in pain.  But what is causing that pain?

I classified it as "missing David" but I'm not sure how that could be it.  It's more of an emptiness that was always there, that I was just masking with this relationship.  Now that he's gone, it's gaping open and I don't even have anyone left to talk about it with.  I've really only got one friend locally and she's A) continually busy and B) has heard all of this before.

  I need to find me.

P.S.  David was and is wonderful.  We just didn't work.  No fault and no blame.  Just sad.  :P