Like the rest of my life, up and down...

UP: I got to have two more sexual firsts last night with my lover! 1) after years of trying, I can finally deepthroat. Considering how much I love to give blowjobs, not being able to deepthroat has been causing me distress. And until now gagging. :-D And 2) the same lover actually managed to give me an orgasm using my most unique erogenous zone, the upper half of my spine. Usually, being touched there feels great but it's too much after 2-3 strokes. His touch was actually delicate enough that, oh my god....



DOWN: above listed lover, who I have known since highschool and recently gotten back in touch with, has moved on. I was just starting to think that we might work. His personal growth since he crushed on me in high school has been amazing. But he'd actually been doing the sane dating thing, namely, seeing two other women. He decided on one of the others. I called him last night to see how he was doing, and he told me. We kept talking, which made him horny (I had been for the last three days) so I invited him up for a goodbye fuck. And of course, it was fantastic. Now I'm just kind of sad...



Oooh, UP pt.2!: said lover had an orgasm while we had intercourse. Considering how rare it has been for me since I left M to have a man orgasm while I was touching his genitals in any way (like, 2-3 times in the last year and a half and 6-8 lovers) that was immensely reassuring. Hooray, I'm not broken!!